I’ve learned something quite revealing and disturbing about myself in recent times. I have a real problem loving people I disagree with. I suppose that isn’t much of a revolutionary concept in the end. I am sure everyone born with the same affliction I have (being human) are in the same boat. The problem is that as a believer in Christ I am not given the option of hating people.

One of my few positive traits though is I have always been real good at introspection and trying to look at myself for who I really am. When I began writing for NCV I found it an interesting and creative outlet to speak, sometimes humorously, sometimes more straight ahead about my faith in the hopes of edifying and inspiring the tribe with a different flavor than they are used to.

I was told that the site wanted to showcase many various points of view in articulating our faith and trust me I was gung ho as the Christian sub-culture rarely allows for anything out of the orthodox box.

Suddenly though I began to see columns written that were not only outside my faith perimeters but frankly confusing, even forgoing historically established doctrines of our faith. This, I will admit, didn’t induce a hearty skepticism in me or even a little anger for that matter; No I would have to define it more accurately as downright fury! I was pissed. How in God's name can a Christian site endorse heresy as a legitimate alternative view?

But interestingly enough, this column isn’t about those columns; it’s about how they made me feel. I am on a personal journey of seeking to know Christ intimately. Not in my head mind you, I have that pretty well established. I am missing him in my heart. The fully balanced human that understands that ideas are transcendent, and the one time the God of the universe dimensionalised truth in order to let us see God…we killed Him.

Consequently, the Bible is clear on how to approach off-the-track believers and that is to gently steer them back on course. This love is rare and yet it is the defining behavior to a lost generation, which is supposed to establish that we are true believers.

I will admit that gently steering isn’t my forte. Especially when I interpret those who claim my faith but deny it’s standard of immutable truth and instead embrace culturally driven relativism to be in league with Judas…literally.

I see what is in store soon for true believers in my country. Especially when “hate” crime legislation is passed that will make equating certain behavior as Biblically defined sin, will lead to fines and imprisonment. It is already underway in Canada. The Christians that have embraced the “culture only” Christ without the discipline of repentance will not be touched by these legislations because they won’t stand up for any Christianity other than what the culture deems acceptable.

This is why I consider them traitors to the tribe. Yet, I am to gently nudge them home. I don’t know how well I will accomplish this, but God can change my heart I have to believe. In the end, the Christian I long to be won’t go down yelling and screaming at my former family, but instead will hopefully express the most beautiful of prayers. “Forgive them Lord, they know not what they do”.

As for right now? I ain’t even close.